I thought nothing could ruin it. But then the endorfines disappeared and the tiredness kicked in and social media turned everything upside down. So now, here I am, with Happiness by The Fray playing in my head. But I'm not going to let it down. Instead I'm going to turn a leaf in this book known as my life and I'm going to let go of that part of my life and the people that were a part of it because apperantly they already have. And instead my focus is on the future. A future where people care about me and where I can be happy all the time. That's my focus at the moment.
 
That's going to be my focus all the time. The happiness. That is my goal with everything that I do and with every choice that I make. My happiness is mine and I'm not going to let people get to me anymore. I've spent way too much time caring about what other people think and how they feel and not how I feel. But that stops now. I can try to tell myself that I stopped years ago but it didn't. But now it does. This year it does.
 
Quotable / words to live by
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So, today I failed at making banana pancakes. Again, the taste was amazing but the look was horrible. Maybe I'm just a person who can only cook and bake things that taste great but look awful. I'm cool with that.
 
Either way, I've had a nice day today. Woke up from a great dream this morning instead of all the creepy and scary dreams I've been having lately, walked up the stairs and was greeted by an amazing smell from all the candles my mother was burning yesterday and is keeping that smell alive by lighting my favorite candle. I also went out for a 45 minute walk which is making my body feel all energized and happy and alert. And a tiny bit cold which I'm treating with many cups of tea and blankets. Yeah, I'm feeling really good right now and not even a no thank you from the jobs I applied for can take away my happiness.


This is what I've failed at today. Although there's nothing wrong with the taste. What hate you failed at?